I just can’t seem to find my blue sky today. Feeling dulled
down, and like I can’t even work up a tear for it. I have hope, though, that
this is just one of my days. I have a
few excuses that might even be reasons, but they’re just too tired to tell.
Hope comes from knowing how often I absorb inspiration
without even realizing it. I hope my brain and my heart are just taking a
little sponge break.
Sick of drawing your little orange slice flowers, are
you?
At times, but I find myself drawing them by the dozen. Sick
of you too, SLB. Don’t even try to get me worked up today because it ain’t even
happening.
Over the past couple of weeks I’ve completed three 8x10
canvas panels, three small wood pieces, and three journal pages. This is
incredibly productive for me.
I am currently trying
to ignore SLB. She has a bucket of anxiety and wants to use it to shut me down.
Sitting here writing this is taking more energy than I have.
I have a blank 16x20 stretched canvas propped up on the
chair beside me, waiting for me to face my fear that I can’t make enough to
cover large surfaces anymore. The fact that I am going to cover the shit out of
that big white surface just made me grin a little bit.
I should run. Orange slice flowers refuse to draw
themselves.
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