Sunday, November 30, 2008
I'm rereading Oryx and Crake by Margaret Atwood. What are you reading?
I enjoyed Kung Fu Panda. Sue me.
I want to quit smoking. It's dirty and unhealthy and expensive. It's also just one more thing to carry around. Why have I been doing this for over twenty years? Not sane.
I want to throw away a lot of the garbage that has cluttered up my life for far too long.
Friday, November 28, 2008
Not letting that stop me. Maybe I'll try it again. Maybe I'll just blog whenever I feel like it.
I write these things to negate my own tendency to give up on things just because I hit a little snarl in life. Just reminding me that life is snarly. Just have to go with it. Just have to get on with it, no matter what happened last week or yesterday or ten minutes ago... or what might happen in a minute.
It's just life. If you survive it, kitty, then you have time to do what you want.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Friday, November 21, 2008
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Amanda Palmer love:
She's like a big, scratchy cat that I want to marry. I know, I know... Get in line.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Monday, November 17, 2008
I'm currently having a love/hate relationship with the little painting I've been working on since Saturday. I like her... but something just isn't right. Yet. More texture? Maybe.
I thought about posting her (as a W.I.P), but she tells me (with her eyes) that she isn't ready. Yet.
Going to bed now.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Friday, November 14, 2008
Hey, I actually got to put in a full week at work. And my muscles and aching back will attest to that. we've been working 32 hour weeks for the past month or so, but they took volunteers for today, so yay! I made it through a full week and won't have to cry quite so hard when I get my next paycheck.
I think the lovelies want me to create an island of warm human reading for them now.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
I just refuse not to post, even when I'm washed out and tired and have nothing to say.
What are you reading? I'm still reading Duma Key. It's not bad. (No Lisey's Story, but not bad.) Yes, I enjoy Steven King. Even the newer stuff. I usually end up seeking out a bit of King about once a year. (Favorites: Carrie and Rose Madder. Even though the endings make me want to scream. No, not in the way you would think.)
Rec something for me, huh?
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
There are a million things that I either need or want to be doing, but I'm having so much trouble finding any sort of energy.
I just want to curl up and sleep. I think I will in about ten minutes.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Monday, November 10, 2008
Feel too antsy to write tonight.
And yet here I am. Writing. Not saying much, mind you, but writing no less.
Caves. I live in a cave, and carry it around with me. I want to find my home.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
I'm not really sure how I feel about her right now. Need to let her sit for a while before I make any decisions.
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Yes, there are a few, but tonight I'm feeling stuck on trapped. In this house. In this pattern.
It's past the due date, but my empress now has... a background. (Woo-hoo!)
Friday, November 7, 2008
All I want is a veggie tote, messenger or large satchel, preferably in black, that will go over my shoulder if not over my head. Also must be neither too stiff nor too floppy. And no dangly or frou-frou, please. I would, though, like something attractive. Silver hardware is a plus.
Also, I would prefer not to have to take out a loan to get it. Because I couldn't.
Silly blog, I know. Just one of those things that always bugs me.
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Rahr, recession. My poor little paycheck...
Anyway, I think the lovelies are ready for bed now, so I'll sign off until tomorrow.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Have I mentioned that I need a haircut? Badly.
No art to show today. It has just been difficult to get time alone with the computer for the past couple of days. Hopefully tomorrow... I had to insist upon time to post here today.
I have been working on my Empress card for the Suzi Blu project... (By "working" I mean, well, there's gesso down.) I hope to have it done by Friday, but if not, I'll just get it done when I can.
I have a good idea for her. I'm curious to see what I actually end up with.
Here's a baby picture of Mr. Oliver Squeakers. Just because. Doesn't he look ferocious?
Monday, November 3, 2008
I also have a new blue wig and Pussyfoot pajamas and a little Ty "Fraidy Cat" and, for ze reading, Steven King's Duma Key.
All set for hibernating. I wish I could hibernate. Well, not the sleeping so much... I just want to hole up with the lovelies and paint and read and write and snuggle and such for a few months.
Actually, I think we'll just snuggle up on the futon and read a couple of chapters. Wow. I find myself looking forward to that.
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Can you guess what's in the neato little pocket?
A little over three months ago I won this lovely from Rose at What I Made Today on Win A Whimsy Wednesday! (Link is in my blog list, over there on the left. Go make with the click-y. This blog is amazing.)
I love this little witch. She always makes me smile. The scan doesn't really do her justice, so just know that she looks like this, only better. The blue and red are, hmmm, I think the word would be pearly. I love the design and just the overall "feel" of this piece.
Belated thank you, Rose!
Friday, October 31, 2008
I really am tired of letting depression get the best of me, though.
So... I signed up for NaBloPoMo. Yep. Me. Kitty. That woman who was going to start posting again (again) over a month ago. (Again.)
I have a lot of catching up to do, and I'm going to do it one day at a time.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
And end up looking at the awesomeness of other peoples blogs.
I have lots to share... so please don't give up on me, huh?
(Just, you know, watch. I have enough stuff for a superwhammobangup, erm, update. I just have to get the fingers and the brain to sing together.)
(No, not like Gwyneth Paltrow and Huey Lewis in that movie.)
(Did I spell either of those names correctly?)
(I should probably just go and watch Torchwood and practice shading my Petite Dolls until this passes.)
(Please love me back.)
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Monday, August 11, 2008
Sunday, August 3, 2008
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Actually, I've been having a bit of a creative drought. Yesterday I tried to force it, made a sketch... and then promptly blobbed it up... with an ultra-fine sharpie. See, I love ultra-fine sharpies... but the blobbing, not so much.
Bit of a stressful time right now. Can't control my ink flow, you know?
Friday, July 4, 2008
Earlier this week I was given an honor... and, as I said before, I wanted to take the time to give a good and proper response. But I'm sitting here right now, and I'm stammer-writing. I'm tongue-tied and I'm speechless, but most of all I'm thankful... so I'm going to move on forward with this.
Thank you so much Rose for presenting me with the Arte y Pico Award. Even though I've expressed myself through images or written words for as long as I can remember, it still takes me aback when someone actually notices, even encourages it... Again, thank you, Rose.
To paraphrase, or to perhaps just quote directly: This award, originally started by Esey, was created to be given to bloggers who inspire others with their creative energy and their talents, be it writing or artwork in all medias. To be listed is considered a “special honor” the Arte y Pico Award is meant to be paid forward to bloggers who are deserving of it.
Here are the five blogs I've chosen, in no particular order. Be sure to check them out and give them some of the love they deserve.
Out of Character
A Girl and Her Journal
The Path to Publication
Musings From Behind the Easel
If you have been selected for the award, please pay it forward, following the steps below:
1) Choose 5 blogs that you consider deserving of this award based on creativity, design, interesting material, and overall contribution to the blogger community, regardless of the language.
2) Post the name of the author and a link to his or her blog so everyone can view it.
3) Each award-winner has to show the award and put the name and link to the blog that has given her or him the award.
4) The award-winner and the presenter should post the link of the "Arte y pico" blog , so everyone will know the origin of this award.5) Please post these rules!
The Arte y Pico blog is absolutely in Spanish. To read a not so perfect translation, go here.
Also, if you haven't already, check out Rose's amazing blog What I Made Today.
It's such an honor to receive this award from someone whose life is so threaded through with art, beauty and creativity.
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
I just really wanted to, you know?
They aren't varnished yet because I think I might add a couple more little details. This will be another two painting set... mini. Both are on 4 inch x 4 inch wood plaques.
Could I say the word little a few more times in this post?
Scanning washes it out a bit, but what do you do?
I've had a case of hecticdayjobdootherstuff-itis this week. Urgh. Have to run right now...
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Yes... I'm a mucker. No kids, though, so I'm not a mothermu... well, you get the gist.
I did manage to gesso a couple of little plaques... They're right here, waiting, like in that bad song from the eighties... Except, well, I like them a lot more.
Hey, I am a kitty mom, though... so...
Monday, June 23, 2008
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Okay, I apologize for that.
Have I mentioned that making mini art journals has become my new addiction?
I made five yesterday... and, folks, that's pretty productive for me. This time I took advantage of the stack of free local newspapers (like I did with my art journal cover) as well as hand painted paper... and even the cover from a bar of soap. (The green one is the soap wrapper.)
They're still crooked, but I'm getting better a book at a time.
I really should do my nails sometime in the next decade...
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Meanwhile, tonight I've been a bit zoned out, so I took one of my old drawings and mucked about with it with ze photoshop...
I love playing like this... but it certainly does suck time away.
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Well, I made these little "mini journals" a few weeks ago using Tascha's tutorial and whatever I had on hand to substitute. (This means that I used recycled packaging material, work trash labels, painted my own decorative paper, etc. I even carved the star stamp out of an old eraser. Also, Mod Podge still rules.)
Inner critic says, "You cut everything all crooked. You don't even have a good craft knife, much less a paper cutter. You used scissors and a box cutter. You cut the corners too close, so the edges aren't covered properly. And these photos... ugh. Not very good."
But guess what? Screw inner critic.
I made these. For the first time. And I kinda like 'em.
I was inspired to make these by Tascha, and inspired to post them by walkinthewoods. She posted hers a while back and they look great.
Saturday, June 7, 2008
The problem I'm running across with this is that my figure drawing just isn't up to snuff. I need practice. I need to learn a few proportion skills... The painting I did last week was a just a face... and thus I had far fewer problems with it. (It just seems that, even though she's blue, I have to tell people that she's a mermaid.) I have to get better at arms and such... I want to show the entire creature... and I will.
I did do this sketch... then fiddled with the colors with photoshop.
Now I have to go and do cat things...
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
I actually sort of enjoyed the challenge of working with the wood grain, but I'm thinking that next time I'll do a bit more preliminary sanding before I dive into the painting.
Wood scraps... yay.
Monday, June 2, 2008
Caramel's kittens are getting so big... Big enough to climb up on my desk and walk on my keyboard. They are adorable, beautiful... but when I got up I had these pictures downloaded to my desktop and I had no clue what they were. Well, it seems the little darlings somehow managed to download pics from the windows I had open when I walked away from the computer for a bit last night.
Pretty brilliant, huh? Seven weeks... It's going to hurt to have to find homes away from us for them, but I knew that would be the case from day one... (Caramel was pregnant when she stepped into our lives.)
Sort of mellows the aggravation of finding random things on my desktop.
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
So I decided to try my hand at ATC's using leftovers scrounged from work trash, my trash, and the usual supply suspects. This is my first set, and it was inspired by my sister. I just have to finish off the backs and figure out a cool way to put them together for her...
Have I mentioned that my sister is badass?
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Thursday, May 8, 2008
This is something that I also want. A lot.
What I need is a table. Nothing fancy. Something sturdy I can scoot up to and put my legs under while I'm working on projects.
A table is something that I often think about. Wish about.
Times are tight, so for now I'm improvising... but one day I will stumble across my table. And it shall be of the perfect height. And it shall be roomy enough that I might spread my stuff out a bit if the mood strikes.
And, yea, my stuff will be glad not to be balanced upon the arm of a chair for once.
Monday, May 5, 2008
This is the first image from my current life book, done this year. I realized that I'd done this sort of image before, but I feel that journaling is an intuitive thing for me, so I went ahead with it, and I was pretty pleased with how it turned out.
Lately I've been looking through some older journals, and I found two other, similar drawings. I should explain that these are from when I was keeping mandala journals a few years back. I use the term mandala journal loosely here. I realize that a lot of people associate the term mandala with circular, more pattern based or structured images.
These are from a method that I picked up in art therapy (depression and anxiety) which just involves the circle. Start with the circle, then do what comes intuitively. These images can then be "translated" to reveal where you are emotionally, mentally, etc. based on color. style, composition, etc.
Only I never went for the translation aspect of things. I really just used the circle as a starting point, and the art itself as a means of release. I do believe in the validity of this aspect of things... but I wanted to draw and play with color more than I wanted to research... There's a telling confession, I suppose.
(There are books out there on translating your mandalas. Perhaps one day I will find some links to share here.)
Anyway, back to the stuff I started rambling about in the first place... Tea or coffee cups with faces. I think these images come out of me for a lot of different reasons. Tea and coffee are comfort items for me, and I always have a mug of one or the other right on hand. Also, I think the images are a way of saying that I feel like I'm being consumed in one way or anther. I like that the drawings always turn out a bit kitschy as well. These are just a few of the far ranging reasons that I think I go back to them.
This image is from 2005:
For the mandala journals, my materials consisted almost exclusively of Crayola markers, fine and ultra-fine tipped sharpies, those yellow Papermate mechanical pencils, whatever colored pencils I could afford, and a few heavy artists pencils. I still keep all of these things on hand because I love using them, but I am trying to use new things these days.
I like the swirls here, and the kitty cat, and I think that I like the composition of this one best out of the three.
The last one here is actually the first one that I did, all the way back in 2003:
This one is actually probably the best example of that consumed feeling I mentioned before. And of how tired and fed up I felt at that point in time, even though I knew that the best thing to do was to just keep offering myself up in the best ways that I could. This was a very straining, draining time in my life, but one that I wouldn't exchange for anything, save a happy ending of the sort that only occurs in fairy tales.
If you look close, you can see just how stressed I was... The area inside the saucer was done in very dark pencil, and I apparently pressed hard enough to crease the paper.
Looking at all of these really forces me to think about where I was, and where I am now.
It shows me some of my common themes, and how I've grown ( and perhaps regressed at times) in my art.
See, I just really realized that these teacups are always me. Yes, a lot of things that I draw represent how I feel, but I think these little cups are the most realistic way that I have ever portrayed myself in my art. And it was all intuitive.
Please pardon me while I have a great big moment with myself...
Sunday, May 4, 2008
First is the Mola power animal... You know, I tried not to pick cats, but cats just are. These are my gemini cats, similar, yet different. Together.
(Yes, that's a glare. Sorry. Working on it.)
Next is the "Start with a flower" assignment. Lots of Crayola going on for this one.
To me, it's about feeling lost. Obscured.
I do love Suzi Blu. How inspiring is she? Really. Do I have to even say it?
Saturday, May 3, 2008
Anyway, I fixed it. I hope it stays... mine.
I wonder if someone who thought they put up Dimu Borgir and other assorted heavy stuff was surprised to find Suziblu, Mothra, and Shonen Knife on their page... Kind of funny, actually.
Sunday, April 27, 2008
I think I found it at just the right time, considering the contents of my last post.
I picked it up here: http://www.tartx.com/blog/
Excellent blog, this.
Saturday, April 19, 2008
And I'm tired of it. Being lazy and bad, that is.
Seriously, I know that journaling is something that actually makes me feel better, and yet I neglect it. What am I thinking?
The new computer has been up for a while now, and the scanner is right here in the box, waiting for me. So, kitty, what's the problem?
Whatever it is, you need to get over it.
(Does anyone else in the world pep-talk themselves through their blog?)
Okay. Very soon. Yes.
As soon as I get done playing with these crayons...
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Saturday, March 1, 2008
Still trying to shake this crud. I feel a bit better today, but it's still hard to be energetic about anything. Too much medicine, probably. Still feel sort of disconnected.
I am working on a journal page, which I will post either tonight or tomorrow.
I want a nap.
Saturday, February 23, 2008
This was done last week, so I'm allowing it to count.
Hey, I had to glue those candy wrappers to something.
Sunday, February 17, 2008
My i.c. is so good at what it does. It's flexible. Sometimes it calls me names. Other times it just snickers quietly... I think the worst might be the times when it gets all syrupy and patronizing with me...
I've been fighting back lately, and with some flexibility as well... but some days are more difficult than others.
It is there when I try to write as well, waving television in my face and reminding me that I have to work very early in the morning.
Writing about it helps.
New journal page soon.
Monday, February 11, 2008
Sunday, February 10, 2008
I picked up a container of the Matte-Mat the other day... just opened it up this morning and started.
Didn't have any decorative paper to work with, but I did find a pile of those free local newspapers laying around. Perfect. The colors are there, but somewhat muted... which I love.
The cover of my journal is coming out better than I ever thought it would.
So yay. Pictures when everything dries, even though I don't really think of it as finished.
Saturday, February 9, 2008
Just one of them, though... for today. This is the second page from the new life book.
Yea, I'm still a little rusty, but it's coming back.
Also, many, many thanks to Jim for scanning this for me...
Sunday, February 3, 2008
I play with markers.
This is actually one of those things that I don't dislike about myself, so yay me.
I tried taking a few photos, but so far they've been too dark and blurry. Plan on trying something different with the lighting today.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
It feels so right to be drawing again, even if I'm not always completely satisfied with the result. I can feel a shift in the way I think...
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Friday, January 25, 2008
Anyway, the plan with this blog is to focus on the much neglected artist that lives in me. Getting started has been slow going, and it might be a while before I build up the nerve to post actual pictures of my work (which will be mostly journaling for now, I'm thinking) but this is the first of the baby steps, yes?
Yes. It is.
For now I must go and play with bubble wrap...